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Thursday, December 17, 2009

Zach's adoption story - Part 1

One day, I was sitting at my computer, typing away on some paper for grad school, stressed to the hilt, when my wonderful husband, Bill, came home from work and said, "There might be a baby for us to adopt!" I promptly told him that he had lost his mind and went back to my paper. I was working under a looming due date. Little did I know, so was God...

You see, Bill and I had been blessed 8 years earlier in 1998 with a beautiful, bouncing baby girl. When Rebecca was about 18 months old, we began to try for a second child. God had given us a promise from His word before Rebecca was conceived: (emphasis added by me)

Ps 127 - Passage Lookup - New International Version -

Psalm 127
A song of ascents. Of Solomon.
1 Unless the LORD builds the house,
its builders labor in vain.
Unless the LORD watches over the city,
the watchmen stand guard in vain.
2 In vain you rise early
and stay up late,
toiling for food to eat—
for he grants sleep to [a] those he loves.
3 Sons are a heritage from the LORD,
children a reward from him.
4 Like arrows in the hands of a warrior
are sons born in one's youth.
5 Blessed is the man
whose quiver is full of them.
They will not be put to shame
when they contend with their enemies in the gate."

As far as we could tell, our quiver was not yet full. We thought we would conceive quickly like we did with Rebecca. Our plans were not God's plans. I obsessed over trying to conceive, taking my temperature every morning and standing on my head. I had surgery in 2001 to remove an ovarian cyst and the doctor found endometriosis. We tried Lupron shots to get rid of the endo, but the side effects were worse than the endo. Finally, in 2003, we were thrilled to find out that we were expecting, only to have that dream come crashing down in the form of a miscarriage at 9 weeks. We were crushed and my faith was at an all-time low. When I was finally able to give up my dream of having another baby, I found some peace. Letting go and letting God is the hardest thing I have ever had to do.

To be continued...

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Where to begin???

I have wanted to start this blog for a long time. Now that I have established it, I don't know where to begin! I suppose I could just start at the beginning of Zach's story. Would it be possible for me to ever catch up to the present?
I really want this blog to do 2 things: 1) Glorify God and 2) Contribute to the CHD community as I chronicle Zach's CHD journey. I have been blessed by following so many other blogs from Heart Families, listed in my blog roll. We have a camaraderie based on our similar experiences; through their blogs, they give me friendship on those days when I am feeling isolated, comfort on those days when I am feeling down, and hope on those days that I am feeling defeated. I hope to do the same for another Heart Mama out there.